I first
knew the name Annie Dillard through Edward Abbey. I read everything he wrote, except for his fiction, which I did not like. He wrote The Monkey Wrench Gang, and due to that was adopted as a mascot by Earth First!, s false-front environmental group used to discredit true conservationists. I doubt that Ed knew he was being used, but in his shoes I probably would have seized on the added publicity too. He lived on book sales royalties, and it was not much. As I recall, he sold the rights to MRG for a nice sum, but that book is still waiting to be made into a movie.
I read MRG and then avoided all of his other fiction. His characters were too clever and overwrought, and there was just too much self-destructiveness within it. The idea was that a new breed of environmentalist would step forward, and start doing destruction of projects that were anti-nature. The big one in Abbey’s time was the Glen Canyon Dam, a water project built in the 1950s over the objections of then true-to-heart conservationists. Abbey and others would take time to paddle what would later become the catchment area for Lake Powell. His writing about that and other natural wonders of the Western United States, especially the deserts, is why I read it all, everything he wrote, except the fiction.
David Brower (1912-2000) came out in favor of Glen Canyon, which I think went a long way in helping the project go forward. He was prominent and well-known at that time. His words carried weight. Later Brower would express regret that he came out as he did. To me, suspicious Sam, it told me that Brower, like Earth First!, was false-front. That’s pretty common in the environmental movement.
Abbey died in 1989 at the age of 62 of cirrhosis of the liver. That’s all anyone can make of his hints while alive. Sam Prentiss, a follower, wrote Finding Abbey in 2015, and concluded that given the descriptions of his condition in his writing, that Abbey indeed drank himself to death. Abbey described a medical condition that nearly killed him, without any mention of liver, just some complicated medical jargon that Prentiss unraveled:
Before leaving Michigan for this absurd adventure to locate Abbey’s final resting place, I asked my friend McCleary, a therapist who works with addicts, if he knew of esophageal varices.
McCleary said, “Yup.”
“What causes it?”
“Drinking,” McCleary said without hesitation.
“Anything else?”
Not really.”
OK. I’ll leave it at that, and will not judge the man, as he was a walking contradiction, who complained about overpopulation as he married five times and sired five children. He was a good writer, a quotable one. My favorite among many, “Growth for the sake of growth is the ideology of the cancer cell.” Ed was a boozer. And a good writer. Do the two go hand-in-hand? No, not really, but when it happens, we do take note and remember great authors who died of alcoholism, and not the ones who lived without the addiction.
Abbey spoke very highly of Annie Dillard after she won her 1975 Pulitzer Prize for General Nonfiction for her book Pilgrim at Tinker Creek. Abbey’s best writing, in my view, were his essays on travelling the rivers of the American West in a raft. There was nothing complicated about it – putting in, passing the day, fighting rapids, getting out, making camp, morning coffee, hiking the side canyons. As I liked to say, reading Abbey was like a fireplace and warm slippers in the winter.
My favorite, Down the River with Henry Thoreau, was about a trip down the Green River of Utah. I made that same trip, putting in at Mineral Springs, just like Ed, but not because of Ed. Also, we were in canoes, and not rafts, but the part of the Green we paddled was calm and easygoing. We got out on the Colorado River shortly after the confluence. As we nervously paddled, me feeling the power of the river beneath me, we saw a man on shore frantically waving his paddle at us. We beached, and he advised us that in a short while we would encounter Brown Bettie, a class III rapid, and our canoes would not likely survive.
“We camp here”, we decided. I remember that line from the movie True Grit, starring John Wayne, who also suffered, I read, of alcoholism. He uttered those words after drinking all day and then falling off his horse late.
Anyway, note the photo above of Dillard, and read Abbey as I have read him, and you might understand my take on why he wrote such glorious praise about her, beyond her writing. She was an attractive woman, and Abbey was a horndog. He probably, I intuit, had a mind that he would meet her professionally after public praise, and bed her.
Like I say, I admired Abbey, a great writer and a so-so human being. I still have all of his books, except the fiction.
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Annie Dillard, who died on September 15 at age 81, was a bit of a recluse in the public sense, that is, she seemed to want to live a private life in spite of her fame. No doubt more than one man wanted to know her better, perhaps tried to look her up. She married three times, the last to Robert Richardson, whom she met after sending him a fan letter about his book Henry Thoreau: A Life of the Mind. The circle completes. (He died six years ago.)
I did not read Dillard’s Pulitzer book, a Pilgrim at Tinker Creek, until a few years ago. In it, Dillard, a woman living a peaceful life, would spend hours observing, just observing, nature around her in her home in Virginia. She seemed to have infinite patience. I’ll quote just a few memorable lines among hundreds from the book:
I was ambling across this hill that day when I noticed the speck of pure white. The hill is eroded; the slope is a rotted rack of red clay broken by grassy hill locks and low wild roses whose roots clasp a pittance of topsoil. I leaned to examine the white thing and saw a mass of bubbles like spittle. Then I saw something dark like an engorged leech rummaging over the spittle, and then I saw the praying mantis.
She was upside down, clinging to a horizontal stem of wild Rose by her feet which pointed to heaven. Her head was deep in dried grass. Her abdomen was swollen like a smashed finger; it tapered to a fleshy tip out of which bubbled a wet, whipped froth. I couldn’t believe my eyes. I lay on the hill this way and that, my knees in thorns and my cheeks in clay, trying to see as well as I could. I poked near the female’s head with a grass; she was clearly undisturbed, so I settled my nose an inch from that pulsing abdomen. It popped like a concertina, it throbbed like a bellows; it roved, pumping, over the glistening, clabbered surface of the egg case testing and patting, thrusting and smoothing. It seemed to act so independently that I forgot the panting brown stick at the other end. The bubble creature seemed to have two eyes, a frantic little brain, and two busy, soft hands. It looked like a hideous, harried mother sticking up a fat daughter for a beauty pageant, touching her up, slobbering over her, patting and hemming and brushing and stroking. The male was nowhere in sight. The female had probably eaten him. (Page 57)
The birds have started singing in the Valley. Their February squawks and naked chirps are fully fledged now, and long lyrics fly in the air. Birdsong catches in the mountains’ rim and pulls in the valley; it threads through the forests, it slides down the creeks. At the house a wonderful thing happens. The Mockingbird that nests each year in the front yard spruce strikes up his chant in high places, and one of those high places is my chimney. When he sings there, the hollow chimney access the sound box, like the careful emptiness inside a cello or a violin, and the notes of the song gather fullness and reverberate through the house. (Page 105)
And on it goes, the above words just a sense of her writing style, and her persona, a quiet observer with keen insight. She also wrote Teaching a Stone to Talk, and my best memory of that book is something we’ve all witnessed, a spider trapped in a bathtub. Dillard could not let it suffer, and so draped a towel over the edge of the tub. It quickly crawled out. I did the same with a very large spider trapped in the same manner. I draped the towel, and came back later to find it had escaped. I had clothes laying on the edge of the tub, and worried that it might be lodged within them. Then I looked over and saw the doorway leading out, and there stood the spider front and center. I went to it and it did not try to hide. I picked it up with a toilet paper and it did not resist. I took it outside and released it. But something about the way it stood in the doorway, it was as if we knew each other. It was not scared of me and did not try to hide from me after I engineered its escape from the tub.
Anyway, God rest your lovely quiet soul, Annie Dillard.
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Lastly, I also want to write a brief eulogy for CO2. It seems that whenever climate scientists get together, they discuss this molecule. There are thousands of scientists who dispute climate change and the effects of CO2, and I’ve read much of that, including tracts on how the heating power of the molecule is logarithmic. The first 200 ppm (parts per million in the air) will indeed create warmth, but after that, there is rapid decline. By the time we get to 432ppm, where we are now at, it is spent. If we continue with our mild warming, it is not due to CO2.
That in mind, I urge everyone not to bother with it, to skip the scientific papers and essays on it, and just ignore everything that is written about it. CO2 was chosen because it is a byproduct of use of fossil fuels. The object was never CO2 itself, but fossil fuels. And that source was chosen for demonization because it is our lifeblood, our source of wealth and comfort. Climate alarmists are like any other popular movement, including those I have participated in, largely uninformed, and I do not separate myself from my cohorts in my activities over the years, most prominently as a Wilderness advocate for many years in Montana.
There is no point in arguing. Science will not carry the day. whatever the leaders of the Climate Change movement want for real is undisclosed. Forget Trump, has he has only given us brief respite. The attack on our way of life will resume in earnest with “election”, or selection, of a Democrat President in 2028. This ain’t over. The power behind the movement is immense and far reaching. How can they lose?
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