It was a long process from beginning to end to come to grips with the matter and then stating publicly that I was convinced by writings and a movie that John Lennon’s 1980 shooting was a fake event, that he may in fact still be alive, and was for certain alive in 2008.
That’s not important, although crossing that little bridge from absolute belief to uncertainty would benefit everyone. It would lead to that side of the river where nothing can be taken at face, where everything is held open to question. That’s a good way to live.
But people, for the most part, cannot deal with that. They want certainty. Life offers very little of it.
People are layered beasts, most projecting phony images. Other than our small circle of friends, with whom he can be candid, there’s very little honesty in the world. There is no honesty in politics, and news is almost always fake. Virtually everything that comes to us via the TV screen is a concocted lie in some form, save perhaps weather forecasts. (Ah, but sporting events are genuine! I have no reason to think that true. There is, after all, large money at stake. That leaves it open to question.)
That makes life both interesting and unpredictable. It leaves us to our own devices to understand things. We have no one we can trust.
Knowing that, it is important to understand that we can be fooled, that we can be wrong. That is not big deal. Once fooled, we can be un-fooled. We are always in a state of flux. Life is about movement towards truth, not arrival there. When we happen upon a truth, as I did about Lennon and so many other fake events, it’s just a sign we are on the right road, but there still await may choices of turns and dead ends.
That last little paragraph above has helped me understand so much, and will continue to be my guiding light – that I have been wrong, have been fooled, and will be again and again as I move forward. On the day that I stop doubting and start trusting, I will also stop moving forward.
I know many people who never admit error about anything. They are usually wrong about just about everything.
We are in Bozeman for one more day before returning to Colorado tomorrow. Yesterday we skied West Yellowstone, a taxing day leaving us exhausted. We don’t have many opportunities for Nordic skiing where we live, that is, when it snows you have to hit it right away, as within a few days the snow will be iced up.
As I witnessed the (usually) overweight bearded specimens riding the machines, I thought how vulgarized the American outdoor experience has become, snow machines in winter, ATV’s in summer, jet boats and motor boats and massive campers and trailers with satellites so that the occupants don’t miss any TV. We are in decline, surely. I can only hope that succeeding generations recover the experience of wind in the face, tired limbs and sore feet, vistas that take physical effort to behold, simple food and perhaps a rock to sit on and a book to read.
It occurred to me last night as we discussed American politics … once in office whoever wins has no real power. The parade is already in motion, its destination determined by other, more powerful forces. Politicians are nothing but baton twirlers. (Think of the scene in the movie Animal House where the lead baton twirler in the parade is bumped aside and replaced. That is a nice metaphor for our presidential elections.)